I’m sorry grief.
I didn’t realize you where there.
I didn’t recognize your face at first.
I didn’t see you until I was tripping over you, asking you to move out of the way.
I had more important things to do.
I was busy trying to save the world.
I cleaned up your pee on the ground.
I tried to suppress my own guilt and shame.
I had crossed boundaries and you had crossed mine.
But I loved you so immensely.
I didn’t know your name grief,
until I lost everything,
and then I was reborn again.
I stopped seeing beauty all around me.
I was scared to open my eyes.
To turn on the news.
To open a book.
I saw hurt, I saw pain.
Everywhere I looked I saw pain.
I was in pain.
I lost touch with reality,
with the earth.
I thought I could reach heaven.
But I was already here.
I was already here in heaven.
I am home now.
I once again
see beauty all around me.
(If I don't watch the news).
I once again see your smile and your joy.
I am finding safe spaces to express my rage.
My hurt.
My pain.
The sudden waves of uncontrollable sadness.
My eyes open like faucets and it starts to pour.
I broke into a thousand little pieces.
And I am in the process of rebuilding myself.
Remembering who I am.
Oh, hello there.
I remember you.
You are beautiful.
You are blessed.
You are loved.
I do see your pain.
I do love you.
Can you see my pain?
I'm pretty good at hiding it.
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